C*** strong

Last night was a good night. Got off work, went straight to the gym... and I had the deadlift night by myself. Its hard motivating yourself with nobody there. But I upped myself by ten pounds off the floor this time, not just rack pulls. It wound up looking like this

Deadlift - 3 sets warmups
225 x 5, 1 set
275 x 5, 1 set
315 x 5, 1 set PR

Good mornings
1x10 with 65
1x10 with 85
1x10 with 95

Side bends
3 x 10 with 35, 45, 52.5

Did a little stretch afterwards, then celebrated the ammonia headache!! j/k

Anyway, good to see you the other night C-man. Glad your done with that
Mother-F***** haha. Take care and good tidings.

I want to have big muscles

Sun's day

good morning my fine feather friends... im sitting here in the ER just chillin. I'm contemplating going down to the cafeteria and getting some lunch. After that, I might find me a good book to read. Any suggestions?

Im trying not to get too excited about the motorcycle getting fixed. I'm extremely happy that I finally got one. I just hope nothing too expensive was wrong with it. Im pumped the trip is this weekend. I wish a few more people could make it, but Im very happy that the few going are the closest friends. We's gonna have a blast. See yall laters!!

Bryant

trabajo

Well today was my first day as an RN. It was kinda cool to say "This is Bryant, RN with Cogdell ER... " teehee. I am looking forward to the new career. I do have to say though, that NCLEX rivaled the toughest test I have ever taken, hands down. I felt kinda stupid when I left there. I took the minimum amount of questions, and I didn't know what to think. It was all just educated guesses. haha. Doesn't that make all of you feel safer!

Well, until two weeks from now at red river!!!

Bryant, R.N.

Thursday sucks

I'm kinda bored... actually I'm really bored. I'm sitting at work. I'm not doing much of anything. I just got through arguing with the fiance about the wedding. Lots of fun there... what the hell am I doing getting married again anyway? Oh yea, I love her. Its not that I forgot... just trying to make reading this a little more dramatic.

I thought the whole premise of marriage was to be there for the other one. I'm feeling kinda one-sided with the wedding thing. I know that I was liked in Snyder, but I have learned that darn near the whole county might make it to see me get de-bachelorized. Without trying to sound snobby or egotistical, I think its going to be fun. Other people feel differently. How can I resolve this situation? Its only one day...

Early

Good morning chaps-
Its 0700, and Im at work. Its pretty nice getting up early now and then. I was up around 0500. Showered, soaped, had some cereal... It was nice getting up and enjoying the morning. Listened to a little rage, satriani, blah... It was awesome. I feel really invigorated. I also am looking forward to moving back to snyder. I can't explain it, but I have a huge peace about it. It makes me smile when I actually sit back and ponder. Also, we are only 3 and half hours from Springtown, 4 from arlington(climbing gym) and 3 and half from Red River!! So it will be closer for us all to go on trips! I also hear there is good rock in Lawton, where Sandy's best friend lives.. so we have the hook up there too! I just see nothing but good times in the future for all of us. See you soon!!

Cheers

10/1/08

Well lets see... just sitting here in the library... chillin, bout to do some studying. I just wanted to do a little updating.

Yes I am engaged. We haven't set a date yet, but are working on that. I am not moving to Victoria. Turns out that God had a different plan for Sandy and I. Its nice when you pray about things and you get all these arrows pointing you in the way you should go. job interviews, housing, etc... Its going to be nice living in Snyder for a while. I have a lot of catching up to do.

I am working at the radiology place in austin until the end of the month. Bleh... thought I was done with the place. But oh well, needed some money, because of the changing of the closing date on the house.

Moving day is set for the 18th of Oct, so maybe if anyone reads this that wants to help, you can leave me a message!! hint hint.

Other than all this, all is well. God has given me a peace about everything. And it feels nice. Talk to you all soon!

Prost

ITS OFFICIAL

Sandy and I got engaged last night. It was quite a nervous affair. Thanks for all your prayers. Until later!!

Nastrovya!

Life

I had a good week. Moved some things back home... got torched with G... I felt for you on thursday bro. Sorry.

I plan on tonight. Prayers will be appreciated.

Climb On!

So I had a blasty blast this weekend. I think we should all move back to west texas and be closer to hueco tanks! I am still glad that I did that last 5.8er. I would have been so peesed at m'self. Thanks again.

Next up? 5.12s haha j/k

Im still running on about 85 to 90% right now. I think I'll go have some coffee... with a straw cause m' paws hurt still. Looking forward to our next trip. Love you guys.

Leap of faith

Well fellas, I have definately taken a leap of faith, as the title states. I accepted a job here in new braunfels. Safe and sound, and I was supposed to start today. However, I have felt a strong pull toward moving to Victoria. I know its farther from snyder and from yous guys, but I feel really strongly that we are supposed to be there. Be it school and work and what have you. I have no job other than word from a friend in Victoria, my house might sell, they are past the option period, so I made 1500 if nothing else. I guess basically I turned down a job, have no job here, and I am moving in about 10 days to a place I don't have a place to live yet. Sounds really unwise and unplanned, but I can't explain the feeling that I had last night when Sandy and I talked about it. I felt really great.

Anyway, we are going tomorrow to look at a house. Its cheap, its affordable for us, and its 5 minutes from work and school. Oh and the hospital is throwing in 4500 dead presidents to move down there. So, if you wouldn't mind, say a quick hail mary for us. I'm praying for you Cody, and see you in a few days.

Prost

good news, bad news

Thats right sports fans, good and bad news.

Good news is always better in my opinion.
I accepted a job here in New Braunfels in the ICU. Filled out all the paperwork this morning, peed in a little bottle, and got fit for an N95 respirator. Good fun. I also have a job offer in another ER, and I think Im going to take that position. This hospital will pay for my BSN, which would be a 90 mile round trip here every day. The hospital is 5 minutes from my house. And I already know the ER director. So its pretty much a done deal.

Bad News
The said hospital is in Victoria. So I would be moving further away, approx 110 miles. Which isn't a bad drive at all. Its kinda quick. Oh, and I forgot Patterson has an office here. So that would go under the good news. I'm going up this weekend to fill out for the position, and look at a house. Its nice. I'll keep yall updated.

stomach ulcers

Well, I have successfully received a contract on the house. I stand to do well if the sale goes through. I have applied to Christus Santa Rosa, and I believe they are doing the background check as we speak. I am going through an identity crisis/role confusion right now. I've been in EMS for about 8 years. I have been a paramedic for 6, and now with the prospect of becoming an RN, (and making considerably more money per paycheck) I have become kind of nervous or ill at ease if you will. I have been medicating with coldbeer. haha That seems to help.

Anyway, I'm glad to be out of school. I'm ready to join the ranks of the active again. I need another beer...

decisions

Good evening all-

I have some interresting news you might find... interresting. ha As you may not know, I have had the house on the market for about 2 months or so with nerry a look at all. I had an appointment today, and low and behold they are supposed to make an offer tomorrow. I am excited and distraught all at the same time. What am I supposed to do now if the house sells? Sandy and I talked tonight about it a little. We really could go anywhere. Back to Snyder for a while to save some dough. We'd have to stay in Texas until she gets out of school, so that rules out Spain... ha. Um, what else, Abilene and Lubbock were on the board. But bottom line is anywhere. I'm leaning toward home just because its a chance to spend time with the family and friends. Today was the 1 year anniversary of Brad's death, so of course I lean toward moving close to those closest to me. You know who you are.

I guess all I am saying is that I need prayers now. Prayers for what Sandy and I need to do next, where to go, prayers for peace as well.

Cheers

Benadryl please...

Im sitting at work. Its fun sticking people with needles. Kind of carthartic if you will. It also does wonders for how good we actually have it sometimes you know. I hate sickness, i hate cancers, all that... but to see peoples outlooks on life after some of these things is inspiring.

On another note, I am so tired I can barely see straight. I have pulled around 50 hours this week. I need a pillow... badly. And a trip out of the state would be nice. When are we leaving again??

Code Blue Stat

Geez... you hyenas... I have two job interviews with a potential 3rd. One with the ICU in New Braunfels, one with the ER at University Hospital in San Antonio (which happens to be a level 1 trauma facility), and potentially one on a cardiac unit at Northeast Baptist in San Antonio.

I am really stoked because it's 6 miles from the hospital in New Braunfels, but I think you all know that. The other thing thats strange is this is a change of career for me. I have been a paramedic for the last 6 years and in EMS for 8. Its strange to be making more money and going into the hospital to receive the patients that I used to bring in. Cool none the less.

I am not doing any German volume training by the way. I think I might rupture my yam bag. Anyway, hows it been going with yous guys?

Hump Day.. hehe

Did you ever feel like God, I don't want to go to work today? Not because I don't like my job... but Geez, Im a nurse now, and I could be making so much more money!! Haha. Just kidding. But in all honesty, I don't think I'm going to stay with the company I am with now. There have been a few of us that have gotten higher education such as an RN degree, and our manager refuses to give us raises. Even though we have been there a few years. So, its kinda sad because I like all the people, but its not worth me driving 100 miles round trip a day and spending 50 bucks in gas (God loves the Carolla!) and sitting in traffic for about 2 hours each way sometimes... if Im lucky. Crap I gotta go...


Cheers

moonday

Well, after a long weekend of punishing my body with booze and beer, its off to the regular grind until I get a nurse job. I put in a full time schedule for the next 2 weeks straight. Should work out to around 1200 at least. hopefully. Anyway, Im happy as a lark that is happy to be done with school. Im setting my sights on a BSN soon. Not sure when that will happen to be honest. I want to pay some stuff off pretty soon with that new nurse money. Hope it will be as good as everyone says it is.

As for the house... I put it up for sale about 2 months ago I reckon. Not a soul has scheduled a visit. Thinking about taking it off the market. Too much to hassle with right now. Sandy is under the impression to just leave it, might as well so we don't have to break the contract. Thoughts?

Have a good monday brus

Cheers

Graduate RN

Well it is official folks. I have completed the associates degree program at Austin Community College for RN. I am now a graduate RN, which just means that I will be a R.N. when I pass the NCLEX.

Thank you all for your prayers and support throughout this past year. I have nothing but thanks for those of you I called during the tests and quizzes. Now its off to the real world to get a job.


CHEERS!!!

graduation

I hope I haven't preemptively shot myself in the foot by posting that. But I graduate on thursday after I finish my test on tuesday. I am off today to study in austin with the woman. Keep me in your prayers on tuesday.

I had a thought. If I do graduate and get this job here in town, the hospital is 6 miles from my house. I know I can ride that every time I work. Whats yalls input? That will shape me up pretty quick dont you think? Im getting stoked for september by the way. I also am thinking up a sleeve idea. anyways... im out.


cheers

Two weeks

well this is Saturday the 26th! I have exactly one week of class and clinicals, then the following week is the final. I figured out that I made the highest grade in class on the last test. I have never accomplished that task ever! I have to thank God for that one. It was totally cool going through the test going "I know this one... and this one... and this one." By the time I got done, I didn't know 7 or 8, but I apparently got all but two right.

Anyway, I am looking forward to getting another two degrees. I have no qualms of getting my bachelors in nursing. But I was definitely starting to doubt myself this semester about CRNA school. But now, I feel like I can do anything. With renewed spirit, I feel sorta unstoppable.

There will be a major throwdown in the vicinity after August 5th comes and goes. So prepare yourself mortals... for the greatest party of eternity... Well, at least of the year! haha. Hope all is well


Prost!

Who's really in control?

Have you ever felt like God puts you in places at the right time and place? It's happened a few times in my life where I actually had to sit back and think was that God, or just my wishful thinking.

Today was a good day. Minus the fact that I have been so wrapped up in studying for a test tomorrow that is very important. I have exactly three weeks left in nursing schoool, and it is coming down to the wire. It's gonna be a close one let me tell you.

But that was what my day was about. See, I saw a program this morning on Taoism. A guy that apparantly had a PhD in Taoism was speaking about life and how the Tao, by definition, was advocating a simple honest life. One of the things that he said was "When you were in the womb, you didn't have to worry about things. You just were. You didn't have to think about growing a nose or hands. It just happened. Also, don't get wrapped up into something too tightly. What happens when you try to grap water? It slips right through your fingers. You have to be gentle.

I took from that, don't hold on to things so tightly. It will all work itself out. God puts you where he wants you to be, and also, from my friend Glenn, this isn't whats important. Its a test among a long line of tests. Don't sweat it.

So going on through the day, I found out that a fellow classmate lost her father. That hit home, cause I lost mine while I was young. Suddenly, that big huge test that I was worried about didn't seem so important. Things were coming into perspective if you will.

Lastly, Sandy and I had talked about going and relaxing for a while at the river. We talked and stalled and finally decided to go. We walked and found a place away from everyone by another few people. We sat there for a while, when something caught Sandy's eye. It was a 7 or 8 year old boy that jumped in the river. He was swimming across, and it was kinda wide, with a current, but he was holding his own. Then he started kinda bobbing, and down he went. I bolted, followed by the guys that we were sitting by. We pulled him out with no problems. He was a little winded. I think his dad was more scared than he was.

So all in all, life is untimately the most important thing. Enjoy it, because you never know. And lastly, God truly does put us where he needs us to be.

july 14th

good morning all... im sitting here now contemplating studying. i have approximately 11 days until my nursing final. I am getting extremely nervous. I have to say without a doubt that this is the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. I'm all hopped up on strattera, sweating bullets, not sleeping, and I am balanced just above passing. Just like last semester. But I have heard the final is a beeotch. Anyway, I have lots to study, and I thought I would share my discomfort with yall. Any advice is gladly accepted. Prayers would be nice. Thanks


Cheers

5 weeks

Hey there fellas. Its been a while hasn't it. Well, Im sitting here contemplating studying and going to sleep. Im a little sleepy there. Anyway, I have 5 weeks and 3 tests to go. Im going to study as hard as humanly possible so's I can come see yous guys more often.

I'm interrested in where to get all these highland toys. Hows bout a sword so's I can bleed someone. I think that should go into the contest. See how far you can spray blood with manflesh. haha

battery low.. going to bed

B

bouldering's hard

I went yesterday to bull creek with sandy. Afterwards I felt like a no talent retard. I completed a few routes, three to be exact. I did each one 3 or four times. Gradually getting easier as the day went on. Geez... I was about ready to call the trip off after yesterday. But I stopped at whole earth on the way home to price some aluminum water bottles I read about, and I found a beta book on austin rock. Apparantly, I did 2 V0, a V1, and a V3. To be quite honest, I don't think the V3 is rated correctly, because the hardest one out there is a V7, and I couldn't get up that thing with a ladder and trampoline. After reading it though, I found out that I got half way up some pretty gnarly stuff. One route used to be termed austins hardest route, but that was probably 60 years ago. Anyway, this book had tons of stuff to climb. I think im gonna be busy after I get out of school. Because honestly, I don't think Im quite ready for 2 pitches yet.

hasta

Friday the 13th

I'm not a real superstitous person. I didn't realize it was friday the 13th until I heard someone else say it. It would be cool if there were a full moon tonight, and I found a penny laying heads up as I left work. Even more so if I caught a leprechan outside during lunch hour. Ahh the luck of the... wait.. never mind..

So I have 7 weeks to go in nursing school. Im trying to figure out what I want to do. Part of me wants to stay with the company I am with. The other half wants to move back to my hometown and build another house out in the country. Oh God, my neighbor a few houses up has an above ground pool, aka moat, sauna, petri dish, whatever you want to call it. But it sounds like the neighborhood has a giant air freshner running at all times. The mind numbing hum is constant now. And going outside on the porch to enjoy a beer or perhaps a glass of wine with the lady is a test in futility. I think I might go to jail for murder... wait murder is too soft of a description... for cannabilism... hahaha Anyway, I hate him.

Like I was saying, I forgot how much I enjoy the country life. I like being able to piss off my front porch and go dove hunting off the back. You know what I mean?? The cool thing is, if we do wind up moving back, we have the best place. Barn as well, a peach tree also!! and about 1000 acres of playland. Dude.. Im stoked. perhaps I could build an indoor climbing wall as well. Its gotta be like 20 feet high or so. Well... back to studying about otitis media...

chairs

sweating...

I love the hangboard. Just finished a little impromtu workout, and Im sweating balls... That might be because its hot outside though. It consisted of;

20 sec hang on large slopers
12 pullups on jugs
30 sec bent knee hang
12 pullups on jugs
2 x 3 pullups on jug and med 2 finger hold with first two fingers
repeated with middle and ring finger (stings a little)
finished out with 2x25 pushups TITS!

Feels good to notice strength. I can tell a big difference, more so than the free weights. It seems I can see a difference faster this way.

On the subject of the road trip, I will be done in august. I am thinking about taking 2 weeks or so off before I go back full time. We could tenatively plan something for then if yall would like. Remember dont forget Sandy. Shes down unless she has to work. I guess I should ask her first huh.. ha. Well, off to the shower and then to school. Hasta my brethren

B

post-test

well I failed the first test. I didn't study at all, so no big suprise. I got a 72 and didn't read at all, so I guess that's encouraging. anywho... Im just getting ready for class now. Boring, but who cares. I have 8 weeks to go till Im an RN. Or finished with the RN, I will be a GN until I pass the NCLEX.

Well, hows things going with everyone else? Im so ready to cut loose and go on about a 2 month hiatus from society. Any takers??


CHEERS

Xanax

Well here I sit at work again... dishing out xanax like its water. I wont ever understand claustrophobia. Especially when its in a 4 ft MRI. I can imagine so many things worse, like spelunking!! never. That is claustrophobia defined. Maybe if you were going to give me a million in wampum. I might consider it. But MRI... no problem.

Anyway, last night I did another workout on the board. I let my fingers rest a few days there. Felt really good. I mostly did pullups. Started off...

10 pullups - big jug
2x5 big jug and med 2 finger hold with both sides
dead hang with knees up x30 sec
15 sec dead hang large sloper
2x3 pullups large 3 finger hold and med 2 finger hold (ouchey)
2x20 pushups. Suprisingly the pushups were cake. It is nice to actually feel lighter under my own strength. I am getting excited about being done with school. I might take a month off and stay in the gym and on the rock for 31 days.

back to the weak-minded...
CHEERS

L&D

Ironically enough, I am sitting in class going over the normal processes of labor and delivery, after just learning of the birth of Cody's new child. As beautiful as it is to bring a child into the world, it sure ain't a clean and painless process. All I can say is hooray for the penis. I don't see how the ladies walk around with those things. Geez... more power to yall pink teammates. I'm a weakling, I would never be able to do the labor thing. Anyway, Im going to pee... the back teeth are floating...

Duece

Simulator in use

Well, I just completed my first training day on the ol hangboard.

1. 10 sec dead hang - big slopers
3 pull-ups on jugs (haha... sounds funny

2. 15 sec bent arm hang- large edges (medium edges too hard at this time)
2 pull ups in large 3 finger pockets

3. 10 sec offset hang on two different edges, I chose large and med

4. 15 sec L hang - this is rough... turned into a 15 sec bent knee hang

5. 3 offset pullups Jug and 2 finger pocket and switch for other side

6. 30 sec dead hang - not happening.. more like 15 sec scream...

7. 10 pullups - jugs

I cooled down with 3x10 pushups. This wasn't as bad as I thought. I didn't have any pain at all. I believe that I am going to rest until sunday. All that I have read suggests that tendons take a little longer to heal. Anyway, have a good one...

Cheers

The hangboard commeth

I finally did it my friends. I woke up yesterday, and I thought to myself, I have no cable, nothing is on the 4 channels I have (minus telemundo), and I have all the wood needed to hang the fingerboard that I bought. It took about 3 days to really decide what I wanted to do, but yesterday, I knocked it out in like 2 hours. Mostly by myself, but the neighbor came over and helped finish er off. So, ladies and gents, I give you my overhead storage rack/hangboard mount.

Oh did I fail to mention that today, me paws feel like I got in a fight with a grinding wheel??

a load of stuff...

Snort... you guys are great. This was a much needed weekend of hard labor and work. Although if I ever think of moving again... shoot me. Im just going to sell my house and make sure they are of similar build and bequeth all of my belongings to them.

ugh... my fingers hurt...

other people's lives

well, Im at work... handing out drugs like always. Just thinking about stuff.... here's what I came up with.

You know how everyone always has advice for you whenever you ask for it. I like that. "Hey bro, I was wondering what you thought about this... blah blah blah..." That's always helpful you know. But then there are the people that offer advice without being asked. You know, the person that says, "well you know, you shouldn't do it that way... what you SHOULD be doing is this." or " well that's why I never do that... because you just end up with this". "Hey, you want me to show you how to make that better?" "Well, you go with someone for 6 months, then you get engaged, then you get married, and wait 4 and 17/31 of a month and then you have a boy.... blah blah..."

I personally am tired of hearing "well its time now for yall to either get married or just go your seperate ways." Just because I have career aspirations, baggage from the past, liking having my own opinions and judgement, have a girlfriend that has her own aspirations, reasons, opinions, etc... I'm sick and f-ing tired of people that ask me "so when are yall getting married?" Is my love life the talk of town when Im not in it? Just because I'm not like every other person in this world that graduates high school, gets married, gets knocked up, sits on their keyster, has another kid, starts asking all their friends when they are getting married, so as to spread their misery and perhaps have someone in which to share their misery...???

Now don't get me wrong. I think marriage is a holy institution. I hold it in the highest regard. I have many close friends that did get married right out of high school, and they are some of the happiest people in the world (you know who you are). I pray one day that I am going to share that with my girlfriend.

I am just fed up with this stupid mentality that marriage and kids is the only thing out there. That you are defective if you aren't married and don't want to have kids. "You.... you... aren't married?? You don't want to have kinds?!? Travel?? You'll just be to far from your family. What are you running from? Everything is right here!

Please quote me on this... Anymore questions about marriage, or any more advice on packing or leaving, or anything having to do with MY life... let me repeat that, MY LIFE, and someone's going to get their lips punched off!! hahaha

**stepping off of soap box**

I am having a great day at work... I just gave someone enough drugs for three people, and they took it like a shot of patron. I love this job... sometimes... ha

See you tonight pretty late, Snyder...

cheers

crazy pills

im sitting here at wrk... at about 830 here.

Im going crazy i think...

On to the 3rd semester

Thank you once again gentlemen for your much appreciated prayers. After a bullett-sweating of an afternoon, I came through in true fashion with an 81 of 100. I needed only a 71 to pass with a C, but I'm plenty happy with that. I guess nursing is where God wants me to be afterall. Well, until I see you all again...


CHEERS! SKOL! SLAINTE! NASTROVYA!

Rheumatoid vs Osteoarthritis

If you couldn't tell, I've been studying for a while now. Its 11:48, and my brain is getting to be about the consistency of baby poo, "sniff" without the smell. I'm going to need your prayers lads. Tomorrow is the day. The dreaded final. This decides if I get to go on to this summer, or pack it up and come back next spring. The only problem with a comprehensive final is that there is so much to cover, but so little to know what to cover. We have like 2 or 3 questions from each chapter on the final, and it's impossible to read everything. SO, i guess I'm just doing a blanket read tonight and a little tomorrow morning, and just pray for the best. Anyway, think and pray tomorrow about 3 pm. Until then... I'll call if I die

Cheers

country style pork ribs

Well, I tried my luck on pork ribs this weekend. Didn't come out too bad. I marinated them for about an hour, then oven for about an hour and a half, then grill for 2o to 30 minutes. They were done completely, and not too dry at all. I have to say I think I did well for myself being the first time ever. This meat market that is down the road a bit is quite awesome. I bought 5 1/2 pounds of country style ribs, a 12 pack of beer, an oval link of garlic sausage, a bag of tito's tortilla chips, and 3 ears of corn for 19 bucks. The meat alone was like 10. If you ever get to come down here cody, we can meat poison the whole family. Just ask glenn, its quite tasty. I want to buy a shirt, like the one we got at fishers. OH, THEY SELL FISHER BEER TOO. I saw that today. I would've bought some, but I felt like it would be sacriledge. So I stuck with bud light. Well... I guess its back to the grind. Im going over case studies right now. Not real fun. One of these days cody, I need you to help me come up with something to hang my simulator board in the garage. Until later...



Cheers

D-Day +1

The german war machine has been defeated at the Battle of the Bulge.

I studied harder than I ever have and it has paid off my friends. I received an 88 of 100 for my efforts. Thanks for your prayers everyone. I will talk to you soon.

SKOL!!!

Idiocracy

Well, one week after my "courtmarshall", my arm still stings a little. Not too bad though, considering the nerve damage that I hopefully dont have permenantly. Every time I touch the stitches, it feels like 1.21 jiggawatts is traveling up my arm toward my hand. Ahh you should see the pictures.

Well, I sit here at work, staring blankly at my Med Surg book. D-Day is monday. I, as well as half of the class, sit barely under the pass mark at about a 73. Funny thing is that a dept head sat in class with us, looked at a few tests, and decided that nothing being taught in class is what is on the test. Odd. I dont know what to do with that info.

Well, time to dish out some Xanax. My next sedation is here. Pray for me around 3 pm on monday, that I pass this test.

Cheers

Downhill??

Well, I am one year older than 29 today. There is so much stigma attached to age these days it seems. I don't feel any older in spirit or actual physical health. Its funny to hear all these people say, "Oh God, I'm old. I'm not a kid anymore. I need to go get my hair colored, and my nails done." Basically it seems so we can all lie to each other about our age. Oh its OK, 30 is the new 20. Blah Blah Blah... I'm 30, and besides the fact that my blood pressure is high secondary to nursing school related to the fact that I'm not doing to well... That last sentence is called a nursing diagnosis... this is how twisted my world is right now. Arrgghh...
I hate actually trying hard on something only to be mediocre. I have been studying all week, even with my parents here, and it still feels like a moot point. Anyway... digression...

I am 30 today........ Is something supposed to happen today? Any new insight? Any wisdom bestowed or any birthright given?? Who knows. All I know is that I feel fine, just one year of age added. Well, I am going to Austin with the folks and I need a shower ASAP. I smell... like beer...

Cheers

NSAIDs

I feel like a 400 pound giant ate me and then shat me off of a cliff... Every bone and muscle in my body hurts. But masochistically I like it. I had an absolute awesome time at the annual Red River trip. I am ready to go back.

What else... brewing up some hot dirty bean water.. I'm going to finish my care plan that is due today... then I am going to rest a little... And thats about it. I quietly await the hangboard and crashpad arrival. "In Transit" is just not a good enough answer. hold on I need to freebase some more aleve, advil, tylenol, mobic...... aahhhhhhh.... zzzzzzzzzzzz

ritalin

Here I sit upstairs, trying to get going on reading assignments. This happened last night, and many other nights, as well. I just don't feel like I have the energy to do it. I know I have the energy to do other things, just not studying. Here is the problem though... i am on the cusp of not passing this class. I am barely hanging on with a C average. Its not been because I haven't tried though. This nurse thinking is difficult to do. Any ideas on how to stay focused and rid myself of this deflating passivity?

awaiting

Well, I purchased a crash pad for the lass and I. As well as a metolius simulator. I'm awaiting the email saying they are at the store. I want to get ready for the jaunt to New Mexico.

I told my neighbor Rex of the trip to New Mexico, it happens to be his home state. He said that there are a lot of good things to do. He asked if I was into rock climbing. I replied yes I do like it a little. He said there is a lot of good climbing up there. Also, apparantely, there happens to be a really cool spot south of New Mexico called Hueco Tanks. Has anyone ever heard of this place? Im at a loss. ...

As far as friday, I think i might get like 20 tickets getting to RED RIVER. It cant come quick enough. Oh help me might God of Dirt and Grime.

RED RIVER

So I can't wait to get out of town, blow off some steam, and drink massive quantities of alcoholic beverages. I need a cold beer from Doc's, a slice of german chocolate cake, and lots of gasoline fumes streaming right up my nasal passages. Can friday come quick enough....

shave and a haircut

Good morning-
I am sitting here about to get a haircut from the girlfriend. Pray for me all!!