Say Hello!!

Well, we've survived the 6th day ok! I've put together that crying means 1 of 2 things so far.

1. My belly is empty, please put calories in liquid form into a bottle, heated to preferably around 90 degrees, place gently into my mouth as not to damage my delicate palate. Upon completion of me emptying said bottle of caloric intake, please gently pat me upon the back to bring up any air i might have swallowed, because this might cause some discomfort in my intestinal tract. I will then return to my peaceful slumber for an undisclosed amount of time, at which point this process need be repeated.

2. I have shit myself

Its been a great experience!! I am totally wrapped in this little girl stuff. I am carrying a MANtastic diaper bag, but its filled to the brim with every kind of pink accessory you can imagine!!!

See images below:

daddy + day 4

OK, I've officially been a pop for 4 and a half days now. The first night, I honestly wanted to find and fire station and leave her on the door step. Not because I didn't love her with every ounce of my soul, but because I felt so completely inadequate as a father. What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?

It was gut wrenching. I tried everything. Pacing, singing, breastfeeding by sandy, all this, and still nothing. We finally broke down and gave her formula. and Oh My God, it was like heroin. She was out. After that, we've been feeding her regularly, and its been relatively easy.

We had a father daughter day today to let mommy rest her weary head. She slept good. Sooooo, night 4 is about to be in the books. I actually feel, in a strange way, complete by this. I am now connected to a third person... An independant life that was completely dependant on my decision and my wife's decision to being someone into the world. It gives me a very good feeling. and I like it!!

Daddy

Ok, so I'm a daddy now... Its 2:49 am right now, and i just gave Alyssa a bottle. Sandy's milk isnt in yet, and she's feeling like the worst mom ever. So i took man charge and gave the kiddo some grub, she passed out and all is well now. We're going to keep trying the bald headed milk jug, because its so beneficial for the wee ones. But a bottle of formula for sleep seemed like a good trade to me!!

On a different note, thanks for all the positive feedback yall! I feel so supported in my new roll. Its so new to have something to share in this world that is actually yours! A blood relation to you. I really love this feeling!

Well im gonna sign out and see if i can join the wife in lala land for a few coveted minutes!! Lots of love!!!

Manday the 17th

Got out into the man cave yesterday and did a little work with power tools and wood. I have to say my spirits improved a little after that. Its amazing what loud noises and sawdust in your sinuses will do for the psyche...

Worked out again this morning at 5:30 am. I was gonna wait until tues, but that back to back is starting to get a little leery with the numbers going up. Today went like this..

Squat 3x5 con 255 lbs
overhead press 3x5 with 120 lbs
deadlift 1x5 with 290 lbs
chinups to failure x3 14, 15, 9(i didn't wait the full alotted 5 min)

I have progressed greatly in form as well as depth with my squat. I'm very pleased. I'm anxious to see whats gonna happen with I cross into the 350ish range. That was the area of my max. But with the eating and protein and not sandbagging on the lifts, I think 415 squat in april will fall!

1/15/2011

Oh my God, its been a year since I last posted! hehe I had to do that! So, update:

I'm waiting patiently for my spouse to go into labor. I had no idea that people actually carried to term these days. After working in the ER for so long, I was sure it was normal for everyone to be 16, addicted to some sort of illegal substance, and come in in labor at 30 wks... But it is a pleasant suprise to know that the kiddo will have a really good fighting chance of being healthy.

I have been on Chase's weight program for about 2 weeks now. When we started, I felt like a complete wuss, and almost checked in my man card. Then I scrolled down to the bottom of the worksheet, and while ambitious, I thought that maybe I wouldn't be squatting 510 pounds at the end of 3 months.

So after adjusting, Im on track to break into the 400s in squat. Im kinda stoked about that.

Well, good to see ya all again. I'll have pictures soon after when the baby girl gets here. Prayers are appreciated!!